Birthday Eve
DAY 21 OF 22
I’m up to date #FINALLY
So, I plan to drop this 11:59pm. I opened this document 7:17pm.
It’s Monday 2nd February. I got busy.
I knew I wouldn’t be doing my Saturday chores on my birthday so I tried to do it on Friday.
But for the first time ever there was no manic Chineme on the birthday eve. In fact I was borderline overwhelmed.
My midnight plans were looking less than feasible, two friends had texted, canceling their availability for my birthday party and it was a limited party so it was too quick notice to invite anyone else.
I was tweaking the whole day. I didn’t want to be home by midnight but the person I was supposed to be out and about town with, texted me Friday morning that she’d be unavailable.
So I was torn between not going at all and going alone. And who wants to be partying alone on their birthday?
7:17pm, I was sweeping, pondering, remembering my Try-It List and realizing this was an opening for number 4. The hardest item on that list.
My friend and I had planned to go for a comedy show from 9 - 12, then a rave from 12 till whenever we wanted to leave. Doing the comedy show alone was already gonna be tough but I could handle it. The rave on the other hand was going to be torture.
I decided to go for the comedy show alone and see where the night took me.
Leaving the house was when finally, the manic started.
But I did spend the day kinda reflecting. On friends, ended platonic and romantic relationships, new relationships and my mental and emotional state. Two people who I assumed cut me off, reached out, one on this day. I still don’t know how to feel.
But yeah, that was the day. There wasn’t much. Majority of what I wanted to write about was my annoyance and me being overwhelmed but I can’t recreate those emotions. And I was too busy to write them as they were happening. Think sweeping as you’re trying not to cry.
If you want the proper birthday activities. It’s in my next post (out by 8pm)
Did I have a song of the day? I was in between tears and let me cancel this shit.